the great pretender

Daming ganyan… Ewan ko ba. Naglipana sila. Hirap nga nito daig pa nila ang artista sa big screen kung magpanggap kaya tuloy ang manonood mabilis na mapaniwala.

Meron ako kakilala isang babae, tunay na mapag-panggap. biruin mo kapag wala ang bantay wala siyang ginawa kundi mag internet at mag patugtog nang music. panay ang chat nito kahit oras ng trabaho madalas pa naka online at nagbabasa ng kung anong anik-anik sa internet at pag andyan na ang bantay wari mo hirap na hirap sa trabaho at nag bu-busy-busyhan… pumasok ka lang ata para mag internet, at may nalalaman ka pang rules and regulations sa trabaho na bawal ang internet, eh ikaw nga tong pasimuno sa pag ssurf ng net.. Meh ganun?

Nkakatawa nga tong pag masdan habang nagmamadaling patayin o hinaan ang sounds ng kanyang cpu. Kamusta naman yun??

Isa pa, panay ang overtime nito, wala naman ginagawa… pumapasok pa ng 7 days na hindi alam ng bantay. anu naman ang ginagawa mo? nagpapayaman ka lang ba sa kunwaring overtime (na wala namang ginagawa kundi ang mag kwento ng kayabangan dahil sa pakiramdam mo ay alam mo ang lahat at pinipilit mong ikaw ang laging tama..) ikaw na…

ah okey… well kung sa bagay, anu pa nga ba ang magagawa ng mga iilan - ilan sa loob na wala naman laban sayo, ilan lang sila sa mga nagsisipag sa trabaho at hindi kagaya mong nagpapalakas lang at nagpapanggap. sige, nabilog mo nga ang ulo ng bantay sa pagpapanggap mo pero tandaan, marami ang nagmamatyag sayo at balang araw matutuklasin din ang misteryong itinatago..

God’s Wonderful Kindness

Friends are special people. If you are a friend, it means you were chosen. You are not in someone’s life by chance, or by accident . You’re in someone’s life because he or she wants you there. 
 

In this post, allow me to introduce to you my so-called “AMIGAS”. Amigas i considered “God’s Wonderful Kindness”. Amigas who in one way or another help me to be a better person. Amigas who’d always been there when i badly need them. Amigas who’d  cheer me up when i’m down and isolated. Amigas i’ve known for years and no matter what happens i know that they will always be there for me, loving me like their own sister. Hahaha… i love them and i will forever treasure them.

 Veron (torn between two lovers) - She’s my first tutor at work. I remember the first time she taught me how to extract datum and read transactions as well. She taught me the proper way to call and to handle customer queries. Yes, she taught me everything she knew at work. (from credit investigation;employment verification;process of card replacement etc.)

Shaula (daddy’s girl) - i hate her first when i met her but time moves in mysterious ways and i dont exactly remember how we became close. I recall our first bonding at California Nails and Day Spa, we had a great time pampering ourselves and with that, the word “amiga” started.

Wheng (teacher/our adviser) - i dont know if there’s really an inferiority complex scene on our first meeting. I think she doesnt like me in the beginning. But then, this girl possess a good attitude that anyone will surely love. She’s so natural. The way she talks  and the way she gives advises are truly suprising.

Raneh (check lang!) - like Shaula, i hate this young girl when i first met her. Thinking she was too young for work, i decided to be patient with her childish act. Later on, i realize i am wrong to judge her immediately. I salute her for being a survivor. For being a good daughter to her mom and being a good apo to her beloved lola. I sincerely admire her perseverance.

Fharma (a.k.a gimikerang anak) - she rocks my world. she introduce me to a world full of fun and excitement. My boring life eventually transformed into a bubbly outburst. Before, I cant picture myself dancing all night at the bar but thanks to her, I did.

 My amigas, i love you.

 I know, life is so unfair! First, Shaula left, then now its Veron’s turn and few more days Wheng will leave… I will surely miss you amigas! Allow me to thank you for those wonderful moments we’ve spent together. The laughters and the friendship will be forever treasured.

Tomorrow, LET’S CELEBRATE! BAGUIO, here we come…..

We deserve a break! For Shaula who left us and decided to work in different unit. (I know your happy with your normal schedule), For Veron who will now be returning to 18th floor (as i said, love is sweeter the second time around), For Wheng who will soon leave us too (welcome to UBP and enjoy all the benefits this bank has to offer) And for Raneh and Fharma, (may the three of us survive and be happy without them near us) … C H E E R S!!!  

defer=”defer”

Namiss ko to!

Matapos ang isang taon at ilang buwan, sa wakas pinayagan na rin ako ng hari ng Tumana na mag duty ng 10pm-6am.. Pokpok na oras nga kung iisipin pero gusto ko talaga itong schedule na ito… Bakit nga ba??

Una, para umiwas kay haring araw, El Nino na dito sa  Pinas, kapag 6-3pm kasi kasikatan ng araw ang uwi ko at pag 1-10pm naman kasikatan ng araw ang pasok ko… Ayoko kay haring araw, pakiramdam ko kasi galit sya sakin dahil kasi sa tuwing natatapat ako sa kanya, feeling ko gusto niyang sunugin ang  mala-singkamas kong balat (yabang ba?). Gigil na gigil siya sakin kaya pinag papawisan ako ng sobra-sobra habang naglalakad ako mula office hanggang EDSA or vice versa papasok man o pauwl. Jahe tuloy pumasok sa office, hindi ko kasi maiwasang mag amoy araw, (sa kapal ba naman ng uniform na suot ko Mon-Thur..) habang bumebeso-beso sa mga officemates at amigas at mas lalong jahe naman kapag uwian na lalo na kung may makakatabi akong jun-jun sa bus (hala.. hindi ata bagay sakin sabihin yun?) hahaha. Yan tuloy, alin man sa dalawang schedule na yan kinakailangan ko pang humingi ng tulong kay sunscreen o kay UV protect o SPF 15 to 30 … makaiwas lang kay haring araw.  Pero pag GY ang schedule ko, wala na si haring araw pag papasok ako, lumitaw man sya sa pag uwi ko, sandaling sandali lang yun at sinisigurado ko sa inyo na laging maganda ang gising nya, bigyan ba naman ako ng sunshine vitamin every morning, hahaha.

Pangalawa, para makatipid. Sa paanong paraan?? Eto ipapaliwanag ko. Kapag 6-3pm kasi ang schedule ko, napapabili ako ng breakfast sa umaga, hirap kaya mag trabaho ng walang laman ang tyan. Bumibili rin ako ng rice for lunch (madalas kasi may baon akong lutong ulam ni nanay) pero minsan napapabili rin ako ng meal kapag tinamad mag luto si nanay. Ang gastos diba, dalawang meal sa walong oras hindi pa kasama diyan yun picka-picka pag nagkayayaan. Sa hapon naman pag uwi ko, dahil sa mall ang daan ko napapabili ako ng food or drinks, hirap din kaya bumyahe ng dalawang oras nang gutom. Kapag 1-10pm naman ang schedule ko napapabli ako ng meryenda sa hapon, maaga kasi ang lunch ko - 10am (breakfast and lunch in one na yun ha) kumakain na ko sa bahay before ako pumasok pero syempre hindi naman sapat yun at gugutumin talaga ko sa office lalo na at bumyahe ako ng 2 oras at umakyat baba sa MMDA overpass sa EDSA hanggang office habang pinag iinitan ako ni haring araw. Nkaka gutom yun kaya sa gabi, hala sige bile ng pagkain mapagbigyan ko lang ang nagdadabog kong tyan sa gutom. Pero pag GY ang schedule ko sobrang tipid.. Sa bahay na ang breakfast, lunch at dinner ko at pag dating ko sa office, mainit na kape lang sabayan ko pa ng pambansang skyflakes SAPAT na, P20 lang sa pagkain plus ang naka budget na pamasahe tapos na ang araw ko, ang saya diba?

Pangatlo, para hindi ko na maistorbo si  Tatay. Bakit? Eh kasi pag 6-3pm ako, hinahatid ako ni tatay sa sakayang bus wala pa kasing bumabyaheng tricycle samin ng ganun kaaga. (Note : para makaluwas ako kailangan ko munang sumakay ng tricycle sa labas ng bahay namin (P22 fare) para maihatid ako sa Poblacion. From Poblacion, sasakay naman ako ng pampasaherong jeep na byaheng Bocaue, Marilao, Meycauayan etc.. (P7 fare) para makababa ako sa Bocaue Tolgate. Sa Bocaue Tolgate kasi ang sakayan ng bus paluwas ng Maynila (P40 fare - hanggang Ortigas Ilalim na yun). Balik tayo sa tatay… kaya ayun kasabay ko syang gumising ng 3:30am tapos hihintayin nya kong matapos mag ayos at umalis ng 4:20am para maihatid nya ko sa Bocaue Tolgate para makasakay ng bus. Kapg 1-10pm naman ako, iniistorbo ko naman sya sa mahimbing nyang pagtulog dahil mag papasundo ako sa hating gabi. 12am to 12:30am na kasi ako nakaka uwi, pahirapan na kasing sumakay ng bus pauwing Bulacan sa ganung oras (Salamat nga kay Bro at hindi ko pa nararanasan na maiwan ng last trip ng bus). Pero pag GY ako, hindi ko na na kailangan istorbohin si Tatay para magpahatid or magpasundo kasi available pa naman ang lahat ng transportation mode ng ganung oras.

At last but not least ika nga ng iba…. Malaya kong nabibisita ang tila napag iwanan kong blog dahil sa luwag nang oras ko sa GY shift. Malaya akong nakakapag sulat ng kwento habang nag babatch ang Cardpro. (isama ko na rin ang movies at internet surfing)  hahaha.. Namiss ko to! sobra..  (Back to work na ko, up na ang CardPro, tsk…)

10 years

Life seems to be unfair for both of us! Due to work schedules, we won’t be able to celebrate our day together!

Its been a while…  feels like yesterday!

I met him June 7, 1999 at Early Christian School. He was my highschool classmate. He courted me.. (thanks to my highschool friends who teased us “perfect loveteam”). We became official lovers - July 24th. Consider it puppy love as we often squabble on petty things (#1 jealousy). Both our parents don’t concur in our young love. Our school principal and some terror teachers is equally against us - but WE SURVIVED! We made it… and now we are on our 10th year anniversary. Our parents push us to get married, our high school principal and teachers can’t believe we are still together and awaits our highschool reunion. We are now at ease with each other, seldom quarrels and manage to resolve the  problem within the day. Life indeed is full of surprises. We’ve been together for ten years and i love it. i love being inlove with him, the feelings i can’t explain, its incomparable. i think, loving my dy is my passion. (hahaha..)

He’s not here to celebrate the day with me. I’m alone again yet i agree in the saying : Absence makes the heart grow fonder … It doesn’t bother me that my dy is not around and in a far away place doing his job as a seaman because the time we have spent apart has been good for us.  The time we spend away from each other make us love each other even more. (cheesy but true!) 

Happy 10th year GIEANNE’s anniversary dy. Love you.

Alone Again

 Ooops.. i was so busy for the past 3 months and i forgot to post a blog.

My daddy just left last April 9 for his second contract at Celebrity Cruise, again working on board FAR FAR AWAY from me. sigh! I’m alone again and I’m missing him badly now, though we exchange text messages everyday it is still not enough to make me happy. Honestly,  I don’t know when will i be able to cope with this yearning.. I don’t know if i will get use to this scenario. i don’t know when will i be prepared to accept the fact that my dy will just be around for 2 months then will be away for 6 to 8 months on board.. sigh. here i am again doing my own drama. again, i don’t know know, i just love him and being away with him makes me totally weak… i pretend to be strong when i’m with my family, colleagues, friends but in fact, i’m weak. My dy is my everyday vitamin and i am strong when i’m with him. my life is worthless, dull and boring when he’s away, sigh… what is this?? i’m doing drama over my blog, yikeesss!!! i think i should stop now before i could post more drama here.. leaving you guys my favorite picture when me and my dy spent time together at Mt. Samat, Bataan..

I’ll be with my dy SOON

i’ll be with my dy SOON … this has been my shout out in Friendster for the past weeks. after 6 long months of waiting finally i’ll be back in my dy’s arms again. í am excited to see my dy again, to hug him tightly so he would know how much i miss him, so excited to kiss him and so excited to just be with him.

i love my dy so much. i’ve been with him since 1999. i was only 14 then when i met him. He was my first boyfriend, definitely my first love… by then i considered him  my ”all in one”, my bestfriend, my buffoon buddy whenever i’m sad and isolated, my knight and shining armor, my daddy, my EVERYTHING. Yes, he is everything to me and indeed my life is INCOMPLETE without him. i am so blessed to have him beside me and i couldn’t ask for more.

January 21, 2009 —  Í’ll be with my dy SOON  —- January 21, 2009

LOVE YOU DADDY!

MISS YOU DY!

Christmas 2008

 It is the time when the scent of ”putobumbong and bibingka” waft across the air, the sound of carols and jingling bells fill the surroundings and neighborhoods are alive with twinkling lights. Yes, it’s happy Christmas once more. One of the most celebrated occasions in the world, December 25 is a national holiday here in the Philippines.

Below are some of my Christmas photos for year 2008 :

i love everything about Christmas (exchange gifts, parties, foods, family bondings, vacation etc.) Year 2008 is definitely wonderful and i am so excited to welcome 2009. Below is my new year’s eve celebration :

 CHEERS TO A WONDERFUL 2008 AND WELCOME 2009!

Visiting a birthday celebrant

I wake up early today to visit a birthday celebrant. By 7am this morning, i get off my bed and took a bath then leave the house by 7:20am to pick up the flowers i reserved last Saturday at Julius Flower shop near Immaculate Concepcion Parish Church. Yes,  those flowers will be my thoughtful gifts  for the birthday celebrant.  I know you’re thinking that the birthday celebrant seem to be so special to me as  i wake up early today then reserved flowers for her…

She is one of my inspirations, I value and love her like a real mother. I remember when i first met her (Sept. 1, 2001 at my dy’s house in Bataan), she wore that precious smile and welcomed me and my friends at their house. She cooked a mouth watering lunch and merienda for us that day and by then we became relatively close to each other. We were textmates, forwarding inspirational quotes and messages for everday’s guidance. i can’t say by that time that she likes me to be her son’s girlfriend but nevertheless she treated me nicely since then. Years have passed by and she bacame really ill, she suffered in lympoma (cancer)  after her eldest daughter died in US due to blood hemorrhage.  Tita Rossel fought for her life extensions  for 2 years but in God’s will she left her family, her relatives and friends December 15 last year.

7:40am, I was already at the Mary the Queen Memorial Park. i go directly to Tita Rossel’s last resting place, light the candle i bought yesterday at Shoemart and laid the flowers. I whispered “Happy Birthday” and prayed. I was staring at her tombstone and wishing that she’s okey wherever she is by now. I regret the days that i was not able to spent the so-called ”quality time” with her and missed her so much. At 8:15am, i saw Tito Zaldy’s muti cab entering the memorial park, with him is Ranier the youngest in their family. I greeted them good morning and they asked me “kanina ka pa ba?”. I felt happy when Ranier appreciated the candles and flowers i bought.

Birthday without my "dy"

Over nine years since year 1999, i am celebrating my birthday with my dy. I was fourteen then when i met him.  i am blessed and thankful  to have him beside me.  but now, on my 23rd birthday - i’m alone celebrating my day without my dy… poor me.

 i was at home by 1:30pm yesterday after spending my weekends in Fontana with my UBP colleagues. honestly, i really don’t wanna go home early yesterday since i know that if i do, i will feel sad and miss my dy too much and i know that i CANNOT manage the longing and will just cry missing him. 1:45pm, i decided to sleep and take a lot of rest.

past 6:00pm, i was awakened by my nanay’s loud voice calling my name and trying to wake me up but i decided to sleep still and pretend that i never heard her calling me. Probably 30 seconds after, my nanay went to my room to wake me up and said that  Tita Che is outside waiting for me, i was shocked to know that Tita Che is outside so i wake up, get off my bed, wore my slippers, forgot to look at the mirror and forgot to wear my brassiere (too bad)… then as i opened the door, very blurred  i  saw Tita Che together with Ranier holding a bouquet of Pink Roses and a box of Red Ribbon Cake. Then i said hello to both and said “what’s that??” Tita che, said that those are my dy’s gift to me. i was irresistibly overwhelmed and was touched with my dy’s surprise. i was a bit teary eyed and appreciate my dy’s sweetness.

 see the pix below: 

though, this year my dy is not around to celebrate my birthday with me, i am still half happy to know that my daddy loves me too much and will do everything to make me feel special. BTW, my daddy always gave me a bouquet of flowers during my birthdays and valentines day for nine years.  i dunno know what’s the reason why he keeps on giving me flowers  even if i always remind him to save the money and not to give me flowers anymore… (i consider it as “panliligaw”  if a man gave flowers to a girl — and my dy need not to court me because  we are already lovers…) I miss my dy so much. I miss him too badly and i need to wait patiently for another 4 months to be with him again…. i love him!!

First Time Blogger

Yes…. I am a first time blogger. I’ve never thought that I would one day be interested into this stuff, (well, now I did). You might want to ask why I am blogging now - i blog because I like it. I blog to relieve stress, to release all my emotions and eventually share them to others.  I consider this medium my online journal where i am free to write/blog everything that’s on my mind. Well, i honestly do not know what to write/blog from the first place and knowing that there are other people who will be viewing my blogs i dunno know if i CAN make my site interesting to others… but who cares, this is my site and i love it.

Good luck toots and have fun blogging.. hahaha